call me obsessive....

i'm eating strawberry rhubarb pie. it makes me think of Elysia because the first time she ate it was at my house.
Also, i'm borrowing her CDs and i'm listening to the "Disney" one.

I'm doing homework right now. i'm not going to work like i'm supposed to, i kinda hope i get fired because it sucks going in at 9pm.

i'm sad. my best friend forever hasn't contacted me! it's been two days, i'm worried. what if she was..... no, i won't say it.

i'm sitting here in study hall because i'm a major loser and have to stay for study hall since i missed so much class last year - sucks. but i don't have to be here 8th period because of swimming.

today's Friday. i want to just go home and take a nap but that would be much fun. i think i'm going to hang out with lauren and bethany. (wow i just typed Elysia and didn't even mean to! just nature habit i guess.)  i want to eat Mexican. i really want to go to Des Moines, but i don't know if i will. yes there are things kinda actually fun going on in Pella tonight. there's a show at Central for $2 - Everyday Sunday, Cantus Firmus, & some other band. Also, at Smokey Row they're having open mic night - comedy and music i guess. we'll see what fun i come up with. OR Instant Star & Degrassi are on tonight.

The First Day of my Last Year of High School.
.......Today, my Asian lover left me for China. It seemed like everywhere I looked i saw her or thought of her. Get this, 3rd period Pysch my teacher just got back from China and is all talking about China, and i'm just thinking damnit there's no escape! and i thought i saw her at school but it was just another Asian.
     School was interesting today, i was really hyper and like excited until the end of the day and i realized i had to go through it again for 90 more days.
     There are a lot of new people at our school too. There's this weird guy from California who reminds me of Michael (something who likes to hunt and make his own clothes from the things he kills) but anyways this guy looks like he's 20 and mexicanish looking..... kinda freaky - and he sits by me in 2-D.  Kayla from Texas seems cute and nice, she looks just like Claire & Rachael. Of course Lauren is friends with her too.
I talked to Bea today, she's really nice (still has that perfect attendance). i also talked to Kerry G a little bit and it wasn't awkward (for me) rather just casual. Trevor's in my Psych class, he's cool.
Joe LeMays girlfriend is coming to school in here too.
I talked to Nate a little bit and asked about an i.d. and he said he didn't know about Jew and stuff, I also asked Nick

I don't know who i want to be friends with. I would say Lyndsey but i don't know i can handle her or her other friends for a whole semester.
Would you hate me if i hung out with Bea, Steph, Trevor... i don't know who else would be involved. I don't think I'll be able to afford going to DM as often (gas $) and i don't know who i'd feel comfortable being with. UHH come back!

oh by the way.... sorry i didn't pick up at 11:25 i was getting out of class. Then when i called back it was it was disconnected and i thought that was just that. And then i noticed that you called again, sorry :(

I need to go now. Waking up at 5 am isn't fun. bahhhh.
I love my Asian Lover SoOoOoOo much!!

i'm listening to possibly one of the best cds right now... or at least the best band (personal opinion) The All-American Rejects. yes, i love them!!!

well, i went to work tonight and it was surprisingly great! i was working with all girls, but they're great funny girls to work with. and it was pretty slow so that helped things out. I was working at Smokey Row - the coffee shop.
I talked to my manager today about me going to Costa Rica and he said it would be ok. i mean i'm sure he needs me and love to have me working, but he understands the opportunity to go to CR and is being nice about it.

i don't know what i'm going to do tomorrow. i want to see The Island, but Elysia has to work and i'm not going alone and i have to work at 9 pm. I might lay out if it's sunny. i could begin packing....